I immediately wrapped my arms around his neck.
Tears burst from my eyes as the emotion slammed into me like a head on collision.
We would be bringing our child into this world.
We stood there starring at each other for probably minutes, laughing, then getting serious, then delirious and repeated over and over, "I can't believe we're pregnant."
Weeks passed by and we often laid around talking, fantasizing and planning for our bundle.
What would it be like? How would we do it? Would we figure out a way to love on no sleep?
We played the name game for months and fell in love with each other even more when we came to an agreement on two names.
I spent the next 12 weeks puking into toilets, buckets, bushes, buses, or just randomly on the sidewalk.
I managed to throw up everything except my excitement, including my manners about discussing my puking with friends and perfect strangers.
When I managed to go two whole days without feeling as though I was on a sinking ship, we rented books from the library.
We would become educated parents or at least ones who had tried to learn a little something before boo boo was born.
Advice said that American parents who are "ahead of the game" should shop for daycare way before the baby arrives. This I took seriously.
I wrapped my arms around his neck, worry strained on my face and tears quietly streaking down.
I don't know how we will do it. I don't know how anyone does it.
The next couple months of daycare looked equivalent to a year of college at our state school.
My boss excitedly told me that our office is "great" and allows women to take up to 12 weeks childcare.
6 weeks disability, 60% of salary.
4 weeks PTO
2 week unpaid.
She waited for me to wave a pom pom.
My brain circled round and round.
Student loans, diapers, food, diapers, mortgage, St. Croix water that I love so much, 60% of my non-profit salary.
I choked down the fear into my stomach until I could no longer sit comfortably.
Welcome to the world boo boo, all of a sudden excitement has turned into financial chaos and worry and this is before you've even arrived.
What is the true cost of having a baby in the United States? Much more than I ever would've have dreamed.